I'm speechless with anger at your parents and with sorrow and support for you. I'm so sorry. The above responders know more about this than I do. I, too, hope that you are safe now, and that parents are somewhere behind bars. There should be a battery of psychological tests one has to take before being allowed parenthood! Yes, I realize it would cut into our freedoms, but what is freedom, if it is used to torture a child. Again, I am so sorry, and I wish I had better advice for you. There is no fairness in the world. However, I believe there is justice in the universe; in Kharma; in "what goes around, comes around" and so forth. Maybe it's just my own stupid belief system, but I think that, somewhere down the line, we get a good day for every bad one. And vice versa. May this be true for you ! Bless You, and please hang in with us. Reread the excellent suggestions of those above. billieJ