I know how you feel about not wanting to TALK about your problem. I'm the same way, and I find it almost impossible to get things out verbally. When I write or type, I can take my time and get things just right. Also, there's been times in the past that I believed that the only way to get people to notice me would be to do something very bad to myself. Now I'm glad that I never had the guts to do anything.

I know it's hard to talk to people, but have you talked to your family doc about it? Sometimes it's easier to get things out when the person you're telling isn't so close to the situation. And you know that your family doc is all about trying to help you out.

If you ever want to chat, I'm online ALL the time. If you're on AIM, hit me up for a talk, or send me a message here. I'd be more than happy to talk, and heaven knows I could use some more people to chat with too.

Take care of yourself.
~Sondra