Thanks everyone for all of your care for me. I had a heavy session with t. I posted on the psychotherapy board so I wont repeat here, but I did talk to her about my fear of dissoc in the session. She told me she would tell me what happened and what I did. So, we were talking about some things from childhood and i had a brief moment of dissoc and then I was a little confused. She told me I stopped talking and was silent and pulled my sweater (the turtleneck part) over my face. And then I was looking at her. I knew I was talking beforehand, I just didnt remember about what.

I wanted to write things down in my journal today, but I so dont feel like it. I want to pull the covers over my head and sleep all day tomorrow, but of course I cant.