I can't help myself anymore. I've tried and tried, even given in to some of my biggest fears...where has it gotten me...no where. I am still hated, alone, gross disgusting piece of trash. Maybe I should just sit out with the garbage. That is what I am and that is what you do with trash is throw it out...

what's the use of even posting this..why bother with more...not like anyone really cares. I will always be alone...my life is not important