Hi Jefff, I am pretty new here also. This is my first time seeing a therapist and it wasn't as hard as I thought so far.
I think some people make friends very easily and some don't . There is nothing worse then feeling like you have no friends, but here I am sure you will make friends and get some help with getting your feelings out.
I am sure people don't hate you, just maybe your personalities clash or something. But I have had that feeling about a few people in certain places in my life.
Just that we didn't jel and I felt left out till I became more assertive. I was very shy and still am a bit after all these years.
You can talk here and you have friends here so hang in there and (((((hugs))))