Treehouse... I've been also experiencing a lot of... immature emotions lately too. I often send brief connectors emails to my T, who is nice enough to accept them. I've been asking myself the same questions you've been asking- What need am I filling with these connections? (I say filling because...when I do this the need IS actually met and I feel better) Is there a way or ways that I can meet this need (whatever it is) in some other way? Preferably within me.

Answering these questions have proven to be challenging. I think I have been open and even very assertive in trying different things, but I still end up dipping in the T-well. I think I have grown up a bit in that I recognize that...1) I have ? need and 2) I am not trying to immediately deny or dismiss it? 3) Although I don't particularly like it, I am TRYING not to criticize myself for having a need. 4) I am trying to find a way to meet whatever it is myself or at least outside of my therapeutic relationship.
IDK... I think this is evidence of at least some maturing on my part.

If in your reflections you figure out what our need is... please post it. As you know it is so hard to get a handle on something that so... nebulous or unknown.