At some point, most young people will come to realize that their parents may not necessarily have very much to offer them. This is a process of maturing and growing. So just let your expectations and hopes for your parents not be important to you anymore.

I understand the darkness that is inside you. That's simply who you are and there is nothing wrong with it. There are other dark people in the world that you can come to know. Seek them out, carefully. You will find your friends.