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I'm so sorry you've had such terrible experiences.

One thing that helped me this last time was only going a T who would contact me herself before the initial appointment to answer any questions and concerns I had before starting. My current T is so wonderful and helpful and she called me back the night after I called and was very open to answering my questions.

Another thing -- looking up a T that specializes in dissociation might give you limited results only because dissociation isn't really a common specialty. If you have trauma-related dissociation a T that specializes in PTSD/trauma will likely know what to do with dissociation. You can ask those Ts on the phone if they can help with a client who dissociates.