Hi, stop blamming yourself first of all. Try to let go of the past as none of this was ever your fault. It could have been worse, still you could have the right to say something. Though it was out of your will at that time. I've learnt that no one will believe you, if you don't have the edvindence to prove it in the first place. But I do believe that this terrible thing happend and you couldn't do anything about it at the time accept say "no!" Why you, you ask? I ask the same question to me sometimes. The fact is loads of thing happen for a reason to different people. There might not even be a meaning behind it. I just want to reasure you that it's all going to be over now. You can get on with your life and show that I better than him, because you are! Safe hug.... {{{{{{{{{{{{{Lexicon78}}}}}}}}}}}}}}