(((Petunia)))) I know this is hard for you, it would be for anyone! Not all fear is bad, remember... someone who cannot swim should be afraid to go in water over their head.... some of your being triggered... maybe... can be reframed? I hope.,,, YOU can use it to make sure each person who helps you with those needles, keeps you safe.... sometimes we all need another to remind us of good hygiene and double checking, etc. ya know?