Thanks for the hugs SAWE, I sure need them! My T wants me to come in tomorrow and I haven't emailed her back if I am going to. I feel a little better this morning but just scared. Therapy is scary I think and this is such a huge issue for me. My T says it has a lot to do with abandonment in my life. I get all nausous even thinking about it. How do you grieve, I am not sure I even know how...