Hi CChick and welcome to PC....

I have to be honest,,I have mixed emotions regarding your post. It seems you do too...

On the one hand I'm so very sorry for your heartache,,it is hard to lose those we Love and all the infrastructure that surrounds the familiar...I know you hurt and you have every right to....

On the other hand I'm happy for you that your things seem to be moving as they are. You are both here in this place of separating lives because of issues that were building for a bit of time. They have now surfaced and in the light of day you are seeing things without the many masks that denial so convieniently allows...Truth can be a *****...it really has no conscience and for that I'm glad..a mercifull Truth could keep us in bad places far longer than we should...

But you must grieve your dream. It was a good one but please know there will be greater ones, You seem like a wonderfull person who has a good grasp on the priceless commodity of friendship. Stay active,,,keep yourself occupied,,do something new and different,,start a excersize program, yoga or gym. Take a class on something you've always wanted to learn....

Let life offer you opportunity.......

We are here,,,we were all helped along when we arrived and we pay it forward....

And please,,your post was your post,,never appologise for feelings honestly shared...



Lenny