It's okay, Kismet, not a problem. I do think that a therapist or someone like that would be a help, but I'm afraid that my parents wouldn't allow me to do that. I'm afraid that I might have to wait until I go to college to be able to properly address this, and then I might not be able to afford to pay for a therapist.

It's not so bad when I'm outside at night, actually, just during the day, for some reason. I live in the middle of the woods, so anytime I go out I get those feelings, unless I'm right on my front lawn. I mean, I'm just so terrified of finding a murder victim or something . . . my dad told me I was being ridiculous, that of course I would never find a body, but think of how many people are murdered every day' someone has to find all those bodies, and many of the finders are just people who stumble on them by accident.

And you're right, Kismet, it is abnormal, even though it's not necrophelia