Flower, that is so so sad, I am so sorry for all the pain you have endured.

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I agree with Tree, that there are lots of different ways to use a therapy session. It needn't be probing or exploring; it can simply be supportive and soothing. You can be "held" and comforted by someone who really knows you and your story, cares about you, and can face the pain and grief that you face. Having someone with us at these times so we are not alone can be profoundly affecting and help so much in getting through the pain. From what you say about your T, if you can let her know how she can best help you right now, she would readily oblige.