i'm feeling sick n tired now. my partner who suffer from depression, ate around 1 or 2 pack of sleeping pills yesterday. I was so heart break. he said he just wanna be more relax. ya, but how do we feel? has he ever think whether we 're worry of him. then he start to talk about his past, all his unhappiness, until 2am. He was drunk, couldn't stand well, but keep on talking. i'm starting to feel tired and fed up. we hav been encouraging and supporting him, but there's just no improvement.

ya, he could just hurt himself or commit suicide whenever he's unhappy or feel so useless. but how about us? can i do the same? can i kill myself? i know he won’t live long, he won’t stand any longer. my first love will end his life soon. he gav up his psychiatrist, he gav up himself. i don't know what else can i do, what's left in this life, i love him so much