Dream, Blue, Polar, yes thanks for the replys. I think more than just being brave its when the not talking about something becomes more painful than talking about it. I had had a manic weekend dealing with the conflictedness going on within me and had emailed T saying I wish she would lock me in a room until I speak the words I so want to speak. T replied that it was positive that I knew what it was I wanted to say. I knew this time, I couldn't just walk into session and not follow through on the wkend emails it was to painful, its got to be done. Tomorrow is my next session but its the last one for a week, not sure if its a good idea to try and get back to where we left off or whether its the perfect time?? we're see. Its silly, but what I'm afraid of is, what do we do once the hug is over? LOL! talk about what we had for breakfast??