(((((((((((((Jen)))))))))))))

I know the feeling of not being able to find a safe place. Sometimes, it annoys me when my T pushes the same old strategies and doesn't seem to understand just how scary it is. Sometimes, all I want to do is sit in a corner and hug my pillow and let myself just be. I have to do that before I can help myself in other, more practical ways.

Anyway, I wanted to say that my T is also gone this week and yesterday I had a reaction similar to the one you described. I felt SUCH a horrible sense of doom and felt that I had no way of connecting with anyone... it reminded me of the end of 2001 Space Odyssey, have you seen it?

But then my husband came home and we spent time together and I felt better. I also told myself that I was just reacting to my T's vacation. In a way, it's a child's reaction, this black and white, "she's gone for a week and so I'm all alone and completely unreachable" feeling.

I'm rambling... but I just wanted to tell you to hang in there, and I'll try to do the same. Thinking of you--Lauren.