(((googley))) thank you for sharing, sweetie. it's nice to know other ppl need certainty in the same way that i do - it's the anxiety/worrying that's the bad part. once i know what is going on, i feel a lot more in control and able to act, even if the circumstances of what have happened are bad. i hope your mother is ok now.

re: pdoc's vacation. usually i know when he is going away, but because we missed 2 appointments i guess he didn't have a chance to tell me. i'm scared about going in tomorrow and finding out why those appts didn't happen. i know i played a part in it, of course, but i really needed at least one of those at the time. oh well, i guess i survived.

thank you for your concern, ((((rainydaygirl)))). yes, i remember having the same reservations when pdoc initially gave me his mobile number, but it's worked out ok for the most part now.

he gave me his number because wanted to be available to a certain group of clients who might need him when he went on hols and he usually asked his secretaries not to pass on messages while he was on leave. (it turned out that i did need him - my T was threatening involuntary commitment, and i needed pdoc to step in and smooth things over for me). so i'm grateful i have his number. also, he explained that he receives txts a lot quicker than he manages to check his voicemail. my (new) therapist also sends me text messages, i think it is convenient for all of us.

even though i trust them to maintain professional boundaries, i trust myself more to run away quick smart if things start getting worriesome.