Hello & Welcome, Briester!

Our stories are different, but we do share some of the same thoughts and, most to the point, our depression is of long duration.

In my case, therapy and medications have helped take the edge off the sting of the illness, but have not restored me to a "normal" productive life. I'm relatively safe but highly dysfunctional.

What I keep hearing about the drugs is that they don't make you feel better, they enable you to feel better. In my personal case, I find the medications simply make me not care I don't feel better.

You already seem to be doing some of the "right" things, and you have a supportive wife. It's always best to be completely honest with your doctor about how you are feeling and the effects/side-effects of the medications. I'm sure your wife would appreciate reconfirmation from you that you love her and that your love is not conditional on your "getting better."

Good for you for seeking help!