Ok, a bit background first.

I get watched by cameras at night, this has been for maybe 10 months now, the people behind it, they want to kill me.
They can also control what people think, done it to me before and a nurse I used to see.
Yeah I told my psychologist etc and they didn't believe me.

Back to now - I'm really sick of it all , the cameras, sick of everyone involved, I think my nurse knows more than she says, I can see it.
It's like they all treat me like some joke.

Anyway I read it's ok to carry a knife in the UK, if the blade is less than 3" - I'm thinking about it, not really to use it, just so they'll leave me alone.

I don't even know if this is what I want - or think I want , or someone else wanting me to think this - it's just confusing.

I'm sick of seeing them all, thinking I don't know they are part of it, or that I can't do anything about it, I just want to show them all.