PS: You don't have to apologize for putting it up. I just noticed all the back and forth stuff, lol. You should be free too say here what you really feel. It is not too taboo to say that. Who hasn't ever thought that? I used to all the time when I was a child. It is just a reaction to anger that we feel when they make us mad. One we need to learn to control, but, you can think and say what you really feel. No one, can tell you OR should tell you how to feel. It is perfectly ok to express youself. When I mention things, they are meant as suggestions, not orders. We are trying to help each other here, right? That is what this forum is for. You are brave and I like that. A~