Hi Briester,

I feel your pain. I have suffered from depression for almost 14 years and after countless medications, only therapy has really helped me. I am still depressed, but I can manage it with therapy and I am on Lexapro. I can tell you from experience that you DO NOT want to kill yourself..it will devastate your family...no amout of money in the world can replace you...my dad killed himself when I was 16 and it really messed me up...seek help, if not for you for your child. Good luck and be blessed..it WILL get better.