None of us are our medication. Its just something to help us stay well. None of is they diagnosis that the drs have labelled us with.
We are all unique individuals with our own characteristics. The medication is just that - medication.
I had a time when I got very 'thingy' about my meds but I got past it. Focus on doing things that can help you. You don't have a stupid brain, just pain. Go easy on yourself.
Best Wishes