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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I am working somewhat with my new t on traumatic memories. I had a difficult session this past monday. I left it alone the following days and yesterday I spent all day in horrible pain and crying and crying and crying. I felt suicidal and like I cojldnt take it anymore and even missed my old t. Now, today, its as if I didnt feel that way yesterday and as if nothing happened. Its all tucked neatly away in my mind. I had a good day. I am afraid of going back to that sad and sui place if I think about it. And have another session. It feels too much, unless I forget aobut it and feel nothing.
Does this make sense? Is this what happens when you work on these memories/feelings?
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BlueMoon,
Dealing with trauma (memories & body) in session, here too, this past week.
Really needed the quiet time at the end of the session. Always so very essential. Calms.
Almost all of the time it happens where there is a lapse of a day or so after the therapy session and this time was no different. Then, there is a crash of sorts, crying or tremendous sleepiness and other things. Then a day or so later, um, it's kind of like the intensity didn't happen. But somewhere inside there is a knowing. There is often an unfolding or internal restructuring after this too. This time was particularly intense b/c of the particular trauma and I guess I missed my old t who helped me before through these tragedies but it was okay b/c he is still pretty close by and the new t is really nice. It's complex within, so all of this takes time. I was delayed receiving help due to life circumstances and an abusive psychologist.
Thanks for asking and I hope you and I can be little brave souls to finish up working through these past events.
Sorry, I feel so not-nuturing, just so protective of self just now.
Take care,
H.