My high school best friend hurt me to the core almost two years ago. She and I were best friends for six years. About a year ago I asked her for her forgiveness, and she said yes. However, I did not at the time, and still don't, feel strong enough to restore the friendship. I am not even able to restore contact, except with a gift left on her doorstep on special occasions. To be honest, I don't even know why I do that. It feels like a part of me has forgiven her for hurting me, but a much larger part still hasn't forgiven her, moved on, and gotten over it. I think I've mostly become numb to the topic, but every so often she will contact me in return, and all those old wounds flare up again. How can I get over this? How can I forgive her?