I can't remember if I have posted anything yet regarding this, good ole memory haha.

Monday I went to primary and let him know what is going on. Didn't go into details but the anxiety and depression obviously were brought up. He prescribed Klonopin and Cymbalta...Have been on the Klonopin before and Effexor was the last anti. Anyway, I know the anti takes weeks to work but in the interim of me taking half doses (what I can tolerate) of the Klonopin as needed for anxiety usually one or two times a day, I am a completely different person. How can it be? I do hate the fact that a pill can make the world so different for me right now but man I am getting out and doing again !!!

I go to an intake appt next Thursday with a Psychiatrist then to see the doc themselves ast some point after (hopefully not weeks later).

I know the meds are not the answer, BUT !, they have allowed me to find my inner self to a certain degree. I am kind and caring again.

Funny thing, I wa freaking out all the time about fiance but I realized last night I am now more engaged in our relationship than I have ever been. It's like I let go of control issues; he didn't run away, and we feel closer than we ever have. I have thanked him for his effort as I see he is working more towards meeting me in the middle.

I just wanted to let you know there are improvements, I expect there may be setbacks but for now I am ecstatic. Thank you to ALL of you for your guidance and love to help me. Please let me know what I can do in return. I plan on being here for a very long time if ya'll will have me

Jen