My counsellor came to visit me earlier and he asked how i'd been, sleeping and eating etc... So I told him that i wasn't eating much and I still hadn't been sleeping properly, a couple of hours a night. wednesday night had a couple of hours sleep an then i was up for over 25 hrs and then got a couple of hrs this morning at bout 8am, but that i'd not been tired during day or anything and had a quite a good week!!! until wednesday night wen i got home and i SI'd for first time in a few months. So he asked why I had done this and so I told him, ( I've never spoken bout this before), the vooices told me that i didn't deserve to be happy and should punnish myself, that i should cut myself. So I did. He asked a bit about the voice if they told me to hurt other ppl and what other things they say. so tried to be as honest as i felt comfortable and told him about one time they told me to stab my brother! I didn't but i threatened too and this really scared me and him the poor boy!!!! he was only 18 i think at the time. It was about 5 yrs ago i think. I felt dreadful the next day wen i realised what i'd done!!!! and still feel bad to this day, always will!!! They aslo tell me things like that my friends are turning against me and talking behind my back and laughing at me, and also when i'm on the bus, they say that ppl are talking and laughing at me. This makes me very anxious and paranoid!!!!!

He asked if i wanted any medication for the voices so asked if that'd help and he said yeah but he'd have to arrange a meeting with the clinical psychologist to talk about the voices so they can get a better understanding.

What does this mean?? what medication?? why do I hear the voices???

Am I going crazy????

Am really worried that I should not have mentioned it to him!!!!!

Am in need of some advice pls!!!!!