Wow Lara. You and I have been talking for a little while and it does sound pretty weird. Do you think it could have something to do with the food and sleep deprivation? Since you're not getting a whole lot of sleep (even with meds) and not eating much, maybe your mind is playing tricks on you.

Poor little brother! But good thing you didn't listen to those voices that time. They're lying to you anyway; you don't deserve to be punished and you do deserve to be happy. Medication might help for the voices, 'cause you definitely don't want to be listening to them and I'm sure it's uber-annoying.

Good luck, hun! You know I care about you and I hope you feel better soon, even though it's a frightening time for you. For the record, I don't think you're crazy.