Did you hate me that much

Was I really all that bad

I would try to talk to you

but you would look on

You saw what you wanted to see

a rebellous girl with no future making all the wrong decisions

I wanted you to look harder at me

to see

I was me

a beautiful girl

with hopes and dreams

wanted to please you

I didnt it seems

I loved you more

through the hatred you gave me

I wanted you to hold me, to love me to save me

you beat me so hard, so bad, so long

At least you were paying attention.....even for that split moment

you felt hatred for me...you felt something for me

what did I do........to make you hate me

Why did you yell, kick me out of the house

tell me Im a slut

and I dont deserve to live

I used to look into your eyes and hope that you would see me

you never did

I cried inside then, my soul was filled with sorrow

my stomach cramped from the tears I cried for hours on end

I just wanted you to love me

love me

love

me