((((((((( KUREHA ))))))))))

Please get in touch with your psychologist as soon as possible. You do not need to live with this great fear that you have. It does sound to me that you may be experiencing psychosis again. This is very scary for you but telling the right people, like your psychologist or the early intervention team will help. They need to know that you are still feeling like you are being watched and that you feel controlled by outside forces.