You don't owe me any apology. I value honesty more than a lot of other things. You have some deep hurts and anger and that is human, not wrong. Maybe I wasn't honest enough when I posted before, but my mom died after 6.5 weeks of discovered breast cancer and my dad has lived alone over 15 years and there have been times when I wished he would peacefully, painlessly pass away in his sleep because I can't help him and he insists on living alone as the house disintegrates around him and it hurts to watch it. I had forgotten that as an 8 year old I persistently "wished" my parents and 2 brothers would mysteriously and painlessly die and a "nice" family would adopt me. I was living with viciously evil abuse.

I've been spending my adult years trying to get free and get over the past. That is all I want for you - peace, freedom to go forth in your life.

I truly wish you well and able to freely enjoy life. I'm glad you spoke up and I know you are not alone. There may be wonderful parents out there, I just don't know what it is like to live with them. I only know how to survive neglect and scary abuse. I AM regaining freedom and peace and even joy. I want the same for you.

leslie and pixie