Last night I had this horrible dream where in it, my mother had passed away. I wasn't sure why or how, I just knew that she was dead and that she was never coming back. This was the only dream I had all night, and it seemed to last for-ev-er. In the dream I could swear I felt the actual pain of knowing I could never talk, touch, or look at my mother again. In my dream I cried and screamed and felt very intense lonliness and heartache. At the end of my dream I burst, and I punched walls inside my house until I moved outside and broke fences. At the end of this, I was on the ground bawling my eyes out. Then I woke up.

When I woke up I could NOT stop crying. I woke up around 9:30, and immediately checked to see if my Mom was still in her room sleeping. She was (thank God). When she finally woke up (around 9:45) I got up and hugged the hell out of her, told her about my dream, and kept crying - which is especially weird for me since it takes something fierce for me to cry in the first place, nevermind in front of someone else (even my Mom).

Anyways, this dream just caught me completely off guard and was 'one of those' dreams that I'm sure will be with me for a long time. Even now (almost an hour and a half later) if I think about it too much I get teary eyed. *shudders* Man, I don't know what I'd do without my Mom...I'd fall apart without her.