Oh Thank you so much. I have been feeling really bad. Can not stop thinking about the whole Car buying, attempted car buying, experiance. I just felt so horrid yesterday. When people yell at me and belittle me and call me an idiot (rather directly or indirectly) it just seems I revert to an inward place very tightly, emotionally. Bad things come up and it is so intense that I can not look people in the eye and well it is just real bad. People start talking around me and for me and about me like I am no there or even in the room or just an insignificant stupid person.

I really hate feel ing this I really, really do.

I felt so emotionally sick from it all yesterday. I could not function at all. Kinda half way in my body and half way out...weak, tired, shamed and wanting to hide.

Oh well I will move on and get over it.