I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so tired.

I feel the only consistant emotion i feel is tiredness. Actually it is more than tiredness, it is exhaustion.

I find people are so overbearing and a mass of chattering activity. I want it all to go away so i have some time to breathe.

But i've shut down so many areas of my life, i've shut out so many people i didn't have the energy to interact with anymore in order to give me that space to breathe and rest and i'm just as tired.

I feel as though i am a robot that simply reacts to situations. I'm too tired to care or feel anymore. I don't think life would be so hard if i felt love, compassion or comfort but they are simply an intellectualized concept for me. If i felt those things it would give me somewhere that i could stop and recuperate.

I wish it would all make sense. I feel so empty and yet i function. I can cope and yet i permanently feel as though i'm going to fall apart. It is exhausting.

I want to move forward, i want to be able to feel nice emotions for once. Emotions that will give me some rest.