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Old Oct 24, 2009, 09:16 AM
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Originally Posted by rainbow8 View Post
BlueMoon, if you ever find out why this happens to you, please let me know. You know I'd be the same way. I overreact when someone is nice to me. My Ts commented on that, but I forgot what they said it meant. My first T said I sexualize feelings; does that apply? I know I told you that I would be afraid to see a male T. It's hard enough to control the feelings with a female; I just feel TOO MUCH for my Ts.
This is a really good thread: I'm just reading it now, and see that a lot applies to me too.
I dont know why this happens to me. I did get some attention from my father, not always appropriate attention, but I got some. An idea- with men, I have some hope. Maybe. My father's attention was probably of the sexualized kind, or that his attention was so inconsistent that it caused me to keep trying. Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
This reply is all over the place But I DO sexualize my feelings for men even when it is a friendship. And I have friendships with men. These feelings are not obvious (at least I hope not!), but I recognize its there.
With female t's, the longing for her isnt sexual, its more of a love me, take care of me, mommy me kind of thing. And I dont know if that is terribly obvious either. WIth a male t, Id want to be his one and only. I would want it ALL! Am I making even a shred of sense?