You know, I don't honestly know what I want anymore. I love his mind (what I know of it) and I've always thought him attractive, but I don't want to risk the loss of our friendship in an effort to satisfy my curiosity. I'm really torn. I would like to know what he wants. We're very similar in a number of ways, not the least of which is a marked inability to properly express emotions. I don't know if he's actually mentally ill, but I really don't have any issue with that if he is. I think even the sanest people probably have a few tendencies that would count as not entirely healthy. My biggest fear is that I will alienate him if I do try something, especially since the only time I've ever been the aggressor was 1) while I was involved in a long-term intimate relationship where I knew exactly where I stood or 2) when slightly tipsy and had a fairly clear idea of where I stood. The real problem with this one is I have no idea where I stand and if he is schizoid, I'm probably never going to. I don't even know what to look for in terms of green lights since red is the default for these guys according to what little I've found in the literature.