It has now been 4 full months since I fully stopped taking all antidepression and anti anxiety meds to try to get pregnant. The first three months the symptoms were just physical: nausea, vomiting, fever... After three months the depression symptoms came back hard core for about 20 days. It was like I fell into a whole. Then it was like a switch went off and I felt better. It has been about 10 days of feeling better. My biggest fear is that this will be a cycle: 20 days of emotional turmoil and 10 days of feeling ok, repeat... I have acceptance that the feelings are almost completely chemical and I have no control over them. It is really difficult to feel so out of control though. Last month around this time is when I "fell" into the emotional whole for 20 days, so I am anxious and worried that it might happen again. I don't want to worry so much that I cause a self-fulling prophecy and make myself fall into the depression either. So I'm writing about so I don't isolate and to see if anyone has any thoughts or wisdom... Thanks
-Chelle