(((((sabrina)))) (((((bebop))))) Thank you so much for your support. I am very sorry that that happened to your friend bebop..my prayers are with you and the family. I keep reliving that moment..that sheer terror of not being able to breathe...of my babys safety...the fact that it was my husband that the root of it all. We prep ourselves to protect us from random strangers wanting to hurt us, not taking candy from a stranger, dont get in a strangers vehicle, get pepper spray for the random guy who might cause trouble on your way to car at night. No one preps you how to feel or what to do when the person you love and never expect hurts you. Im glad my feelings are normal...at least im not alone and i know bebop I need to leave him because he will do it again. He told me if i do decide to divorce him he will help me and pay for it and support my decision. He said what he did terrified him ...he is afraid of even coming two feet near me. That doesnt mean anything..the heart in me is broken and is grasping at straws to put itself back together...Im so lost...but i do need to get my act together before it happens again...