I still have mild "withdrawl like symptoms" but other than that I feel stable. I don't have high energy or feel as though all my worries have magically disappeared. And I don't feel severely depressed either.

I think these are some of the reasons why I acted out so implusively and carelessly:

> Stress trying to find a job
> Worry about the checks that I need to get done by the police...etc
> My period was suppose to start on the 14th and instead it started on the 23rd. So I think I had prolonged PMS with mood changes throughout the day going from mildly sad to very angry ... over small matters.

I was so scared because my manic episodes are EXTREMELY embarrassing and potentially deadly (if I am manic and driving I drive like a race car driver and ignore traffic lights & road signs). I thankfully haven't had a manic episode or major depression in 3 years. I am aslo upset with myself because I put my dog at risk of being put in a kennel if I were to be admitted to hospital. My dog means the world to me and without her in it I would feel lost and hopeless. I don't have children and my brother will rarely communicate via e-mail with me...so I understand it sounds odd or weird but my dog is like my "child".

Thank-you for your support and kindness!