Zorah ... thanks. It would be easier to just put it on "full oughta get em" and let the little bees fly out into the atmosphere. Sometimes I have thoughts like those of your friend. Nothings going to happen but it makes me even more aware that I should visit the pro's. I just don't think there is enough courage to ask for help or to visit the shrinks or to let my family know that the time has come to get some assistance. Maybe all of this is what causes warriors to keep going into the face of danger...it's the only place we can find peace.