Tomorrow I will be going to see my father again. I saw him on Tuesday and I hear he is doing fairly well since considering the cancer. As my mother told me he has no pain. He maybe can get to the point of walking outside again. Hopefully, he will get some quality time before the cancer makes him bedridden.
I am slowly coming to terms with this but it is hard. I am better but mainly because I can push it out of my mind by isolating myself. I know this is not good for me and it will come back to bite me. At least I have begun to control the SI again.