Here I go again...

I have spent the better part of today fixating on my lack of a relationship with my brother.

I thought it was a positive sign when he told me that he had been sending me e-mails for several months. Which I never received. We exchanged polite e-mails. He said that he would like to meet up with me. But keeps putting if off because of his work schedule. And now he has stopped e-mailing me all together. And I have sent no nasty e-mails to him since we reconnected via e-mail this month.

He said that he thought that he would never see me again since I didn't return his e-mails that he has sent me for several months. And now that we have made contact this is a "new reality" for him to adjust to. How politically correct of him to say.

Once again "our relationship" is on his terms only.

I am fed up with being treated poorly. I will not send him anymore e-mails or attempt to make contact with him in any shape or form. And I will avoid social gatherings that he may or may not be attending.

He gives his friends, co-workers, and latest gfs more respect and dignity than I could ever dream of receiving from him.

I think he thrives on me ignoring him and thinks that I do better when we have no contact. Having no family is suppose to make me well? I think this is total crap!

Sorry just had to get this out of my head!