Thank you so much for all your support and prayers and advice. It means alot to me right now, i dont feel so alone anymore. He did offer to do anger management classes and offered to leave for a couple days if that is what i wanted. Im not sure what i want at this point. The fact that he brought our baby into the situation really really angers me as a mother. The fact that sean was not physically hurt and he is a very good father other than that situation is hard. He has never touched a hair on the childs head inappropriately and is always playing with him and sean loves his daddy very much you can see that. I told my husband that if he did hurt sean ever in any way i would not give him a second chance. I would leave him so quick he wouldnt be able to have time to blink. My child always comes first, me on the other hand, im willing to give him a second chance if he gets help. Since he is so good to sean and sean loves him so much (except last night and that was my fault) i want to stay one time to see if we can work through it and if we cant and he chokes me again or hits me im gone and so is sean. Its amazing how in one night you can loose your life, not die, but everything changes so dramatically and its like a hammer and one wrong bang and it all falls apart and you have to start from scratch. If he does change i dont want to never forgive him. I want to forgive ...but ill never forget i know that. thank you again sooo much everyone...im trying to be safe and reestablish a security, its been less than a day and im still replaying the event over and over in my head. I dont think this feeling is going to go away as quickly as i hoped it would.
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