Deli,
I was really glad to see you finally saw pdoc.
Try not to think of it as 'being chicken' not to bring those things up with him. That kind of thing is scary to do, and you just weren't ready. After not seeing him for a while, it sounds like it felt good just to be with him and have things be a little easy and comfortable......and it is ok to take some time to just re-connect in that way. Don't be so hard on yourself!
i also think the promise is amusing, but just in the way it was phrased. But I'm sure he took it seriously, because it points to something deeper and meaningful....that is, your fears and insecurities. And I'm sure it is very important for him to take care of those feelings.
And I related very much to what you said here:
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this year has been the best i've ever had (after april, when i changed meds), but i'm getting upset that i might go off them,
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I just had this thought last night when I was taking my meds - I have been feeling so much less depressed lately, and I thought about stopping the meds. And it scared me! Because, what if the REASON I am feeling better is because of the meds...and then if I go off of them I start feeling awful again.
So......keep taking them Deli!!! And I will too.
