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Originally Posted by sunrise
Sometimes I have had flashbacks. T says they come because I'm ready for them. Sometimes I have dreams and I share these with T. They come from my unconscious and they tell us a lot when we analyze them. My T has also told me he watches very closely in therapy (with all clients) for slight hesitations or changes in the client voice. He told me once he notices when the client looks down; whether it is to the right or left tells him something, although I can't remember what. He says he looks for all these little rough spots when the client is talking and notes them as places to return to and things that may need healing, and sometimes signs of other ego states manifesting. I think Ts are just very attuned to the nuances of another person's behavior, demeanor, mood, etc. Sometimes I feel that I must talk to T about a certain thing when I go to see him, and I am not sure why it is so important that I talk about that thing. I have learned to listen to that impulse in myself, and I think it is from my unconscious. I am not sure what it means, but I try to bring it to therapy, and there it can become apparent.
Sometimes when people write, "trust the process," I interpret that in part to mean trust your unconscious to communicate with T and trust his/her ability to hear it.
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Sunny, thank you! I can really relate to everything you wrote. I've only recently started to have flashbacks, and at first I questioned whether or not they were real memories, but I'm realizing that they are indeed real memories. I agree with your T, that they come when we are ready for them.
I have very vivid dreams, T and I have spent a lot of time analyzing my dreams. I've had some dreams where I didn't know what my unconscious was putting out there, but T would gently point it out and ask if that might be true, and I would realize that it was - rather amazing how it works!
I agree that good T's are very attuned to the patient's verbal and non-verbal communication - my T has always seemed to be very attuned to me, I told her that a few weeks ago.
Last week, I felt how you described, that I had to bring up something to T. When I did bring it up, it didn't even seem like a big deal, but my nose would not stop itching - this has only happened once before in T, and T said that another patient of hers has the same thing happen when they're discussing something really meaningful. And then of course, the moment I leave T's office, my nose stops itching!
But I agree, trusting the process means trusting both T and your own unconscious to guide you along this journey. Truly, it's been a gift to realize that I'm quite capable of knowing what it is that I need. The process has yet to let me down, though I don't always realize why we're headed in a certain direction until I look back on it in hindsight.