Hubby and I got into it. I just wonder if its ever gonna end. I mean in a good way. I am TRYING so hard to stay positive. But he wants me to change into Martha Stewart I am afraid and there is no way I can be the perfect everything she does like he wants me to be.I cant live like this either to the point I am walking on pins and needles trying to make sure everything I do is what he would like or approve of. I feel like I am losing myself in the process and I feel like I am under the control of my abuser again.I am not ready to give up on my a marraige either . I wont. I just want it to be better , how .. what do I do? Its eating me up . I am so scared.

Beth