Hello Kureha,
Remember when you were concerned about your psychologist's room being bugged and the two of you checked it out together? Would something like that be helpful here too? Or is that why you're trying to gather proof?

Meantime, you'd said you were thinking of carrying a knife as a means of intimidation/protection. My only concern about that would be that it could potentially be used against you as well. Is there anything else you can think of that could help protect you but not place you at risk?

I'll talk to my psychologist then - I see her in a few days.

I really liked the way she listened to you and worked with you to check out her office. She seemed like a supportive person to work with and I'm sure she'll have some ideas that will be helpful to you.

I don't take meds, but I don't need them anyway.

I tend to think of meds as a tool. Some people identify them as very helpful, some don't. Ideally, people can find coping methods that work well for them but if that doesn't seem to be happening, it can be comforting to know they can give meds a trial to see if that helps.

I hope you're able to find some solutions soon Kureha.

~ Namaste