Hi, lhmt ~ it's me again. I am so sure that I know how you feel. I can't get myself to do even the basic things, and I don't know what happened, because, until recent years, when all the stressors hit my already-existant depression at once, I was the competent super-achiever. Now I am curled up on the bed, and it takes essentially a fire in the household to bring me alive. I understand your feelings and the procrastination of your project, and your shame at not helping your family right now. It's as though something [depression] takes hold of me and will not let me do these things. I know the above responders are right, but just wanted you to know that there are 2 of us in that same boat. billieJ