mixed_up, I can understand it would be hard to discuss that topic in group. Why don't you work through it in individual therapy before thinking about whether you'll raise this in group? Yes, you've talked about it a bit, but it seems like there is more to work through with your T. Group can wait for you to be ready. It's way more important that you process and grieve this in therapy with a trusted T than forcing yourself to share prematurely in a group setting. Perhaps it will be that you will never share this particular topic in group therapy, and that's OK. Don't be hard on yourself. We're ready when we're ready. I am sure your T has lots of patience and will be ready to discuss this with you when you are ready.