((((lhmt))))

I am sorry you are feeling so down. I hear what you are saying and I validate how you are feeling. I know how depression lies to us and how it can stop you right in your tracks. It has a way with doing that and it cares not who it touches or when.

Sometimes when I feel so low, I have to stop and breath. Knowing that I hold the key to what I believe and what i listen to. I know it is hard and when you feel so worthless (what depression does), is when you need to reach forward and defeat the very thing that holds you.

You say you do not have the energy to do your page, well, take the energy you wrote this post with and do the same with your project. Before you know it, you will complete it. Then you will feel a sense of accomplishment.

Start with the little steps and work a little each day. When the depression rears its ugly head and it will, just do what you can. Take a break. And come back again. Before long, you will be able to do what it is you want to do.

I do not know your circumstances, but why do you have to take care of your family? Contribute, yes, but it does not all fall on you. There are things you can control----what you do, right now, today. For yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come, but today is here.

I just wrote a letter and I opened up and just wrote. I did not read it until the other day when I was with my health mentor. I was reading it to her and as I neared the end, I began to really realize how bad I was feeling and how negative towards myself I was.

Even though I really felt the words I wrote, I cried at the thought of how low I was. She challenged me to write about the positives in my life and what I do have. I know how depression pulls you away from everything. And if we continually listen, it will keep us in its grips and pull tighter until we can no longer see anything good.

I do understand how you are feeling, and I do hear you. I hope you will keep reaching and trying. In giving up we gain nothing. With each time you try, you take a step forward, even a baby step. You may stall for awhile, but do not quit.

We are here to listen and support you. To validate and walk with you. But you have to decide that you want to beat this. And you can. We are here for you. We care. Please care too. You can do this. One day, one minute, one second at a time.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps